Confession

I am way too quick to throw people away.  I can honestly say I'd rather run then fight for rocky friendship--I always run. It's really sad and has finally hit me.  I miss everyone that I have ever been close with.  I guess people come and go out of your life, but maybe I could have done more to make them stay.

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New CD Mix

Feel free to copy it:

Howie Day- She says
Fuel- Falls on me
Britney Spears- Hold it against me
The Band Perry- If I die young
Blake Shelton- Who are you when Im not looking 

Colbie Cailliet- Midnight Bottle
Sugarland- Stuck Like Glue
Jason Aldean- Don't you wanna stay
Luke Bryan- Someone Else Calling you baby
Christina Perri- Jar of hearts
Katy Perry- Firework
Keri Hilson- Pretty Girl Rock
Steel Magnolia- Keep on Lovin' you
Zac Brown band- whatever it is
Luke Bryan- Do I
Pink- F***in perfect
Thompson Square- Are you gonna kiss me or not
Tim McGraw- It felt Good on my lips
Rihanna- S&M

Future Advice

Two things I decided that I am going to teach my children, a couple core values per-say.

1. Don't make fun of someone for something that they can not help.

2. Although we are not perfect, and God forgives us our sins, avoid taking advantage of his forgiveness.  Try to do things that make Him smile.

A friend once asked...

..."Did Mike really honestly change?" "How?? He was pretty immature..."

I honestly couldn't answer how, all I could say was that he had, he had changed.  He had become what I needed him to be.  Maybe not who I needed him to be, but who God did. I even asked Mike a few days later on how he changed.  I don't even remember what he said exactly (go figure, stupid memory!) but I know he didn't answer with a reason--at all.  Now that I type this I realize how--it was God.  God has a plan, and with that plan is a game plan, one that can't be seen until looking back.

Well anyways,
Tonight I stumbled across a binder of heartfelt poems Mike wrote to me, during the years we were apart.  They are so deep, filled with such honesty and love.  I have landed with the man I am meant to be with.  The one who loves me, always has and always will.

A closing to a poem titled Lessons:

When all is said and done
I wouldn't have changed anything
I have no regrets, even letting you go
It was supposed to happen
Because without it, I would not have learned these lessons
The important ones that I needed to know
And if there is ever a second change
You will see what I've learned
You will see what I now know.

This means a lot. Not only because it's personal and romantic, but because he has proven this to be true every single time.  I remember being 15 and talking to him on the phone for hours and hours.  He would tell me how he didn't believe everything happened for a reason.  I'm so thankful he now believes that everything happens for a reason.  How can you believe in God, and yet not believe that he allows things to happen according to his plan?

I love you Mike.

Random updates

What's new?

.I did a hair cut on a lady today at school.  Same lady that I sold my mom's old car too.  Turned out very nice.

.I take my 350 test this Monday, meaning if I pass, I get a station and start working on client's hair.

.Also, practiced foils for highlights today.

.Going up North tomorrow, learning how to skii.  Should be interesting...

.We bought healthy food today, Mike's doing a weight loss challenge at work.  I tried working out with him
yesterday evening.  We were just doing the 'fitness test' on an Insanity Workout DVD, it kicked our butts.

.Our new furniture is IN.  Now we just have to get it picked up by Mike's uncle.  Hopefully we get it after Tet's big surgeries on Wednesday.

.This house is a mess.

.bye

January 12th...

...Tetris (our cat/son) is going to hate us.  I called the Addison Vet Clinic* today and scheduled to get him declawed (new furniture is coming in soon, and the sporadic attacks by him is unacceptable) and to get his rabies shot.  Well, I spontaneously scheduled him to get neutered too.  All operations in one day!  He is going to be so pissed when he comes home.  Oh, and let me add that he also has to spend the night at the vets too.

The lady on the other end of the phone was saying how if you don't get your male cat neutered, they'll start spraying.  That's really sick...  Plus he likes to roam around outside, I'm not sure if he's met any 'ladies' or not but we don't need anymore kittens roaming around this world with illegitimate fathers. ;)

Wish him luck!

* Declawed= $32
Neutured= $44
Rabies= $12
(very cheap compared to the competitors.)

I did say I'd blog in the 'near future'.

Every year (starting last year) when the end of December comes around, I write down all the big milestones of the year.  Big events, first timers, and things I am proud of.  I plan to keep all of my lists, and be able to look back at them and do all that rememberin' you do with memorabilia stuff.  

2010 list (copied word for word):

*Got married.

*Became a home owner.

*Got a pet cat (Tetris)

*Started beauty school.

*Went to 2 schools in one year.

*Got on B.C.

*Shook hands w/ Rob Schneider.

*Rode in a limo.

*Cut Dan out of my life. Finally!

*Got my first 2 tattoos

*Got engaged.

Okay, the order of it all is weird and the Dan one makes me feel immature for posting that... but I was copying my hand written one exactly.  This blog is to not feel like I'm being censored...right?

You should try doing this, it really makes you realize how blessed your year was.