..."Did Mike really honestly change?" "How?? He was pretty immature..."
I honestly couldn't answer how, all I could say was that he had, he had changed. He had become what I needed him to be. Maybe not who I needed him to be, but who God did. I even asked Mike a few days later on how he changed. I don't even remember what he said exactly (go figure, stupid memory!) but I know he didn't answer with a reason--at all. Now that I type this I realize how--it was God. God has a plan, and with that plan is a game plan, one that can't be seen until looking back.
Well anyways,
Tonight I stumbled across a binder of heartfelt poems Mike wrote to me, during the years we were apart. They are so deep, filled with such honesty and love. I have landed with the man I am meant to be with. The one who loves me, always has and always will.
A closing to a poem titled Lessons:
When all is said and done
I wouldn't have changed anything
I have no regrets, even letting you go
It was supposed to happen
Because without it, I would not have learned these lessons
The important ones that I needed to know
And if there is ever a second change
You will see what I've learned
You will see what I now know.
This means a lot. Not only because it's personal and romantic, but because he has proven this to be true every single time. I remember being 15 and talking to him on the phone for hours and hours. He would tell me how he didn't believe everything happened for a reason. I'm so thankful he now believes that everything happens for a reason. How can you believe in God, and yet not believe that he allows things to happen according to his plan?
I love you Mike.
So, I'm not used to your new(ish) blog yet, and for some reason I was thinking it was Kristi's when this post came up in my feed. Needless to say, I was incredibly confused. (You know, trying to figure out why she was talking about a guy named Mike when she's married to Jason...)
ReplyDeleteAnyway, once I figured it out, I thought, aww...sweet :)